Welcome To Hell

Crushed and Broken

2005-09-12T23:42:00.000-07:00

I dunno if i am stupid or what.
I just forget her for nuts.
Why cant i get over her,
but hang on like it was some endangered species's fur.

My heart is broken,
and I have words kept unspoken.
Tears roll everytime,
so much that it can replaced a barrel of wine.

Does she feel anything,
does she even have feelings.
To her i am nobody,
to me she is more important then everybody.
All this while I been waiting, waiting for the day to come.
It never came, and I was called dumb.

People tell me to give up,
but it isnt the same as the love u have for a set of tea cups.
In my heart, she will always be there,
but in hers, i was found nowhere.

All she promised, didn't happen.
I got pissed.
All she said, she didn't mean it.
All i can say, it was bullshit.

How can I get her back?
Maybe I should kidnap her with a sack.
What can I do?
When all I can tell her is I LOVE YOU.

Now since she is like that.
I can only say i am really sad.
I am lost,
but I must not lose my life at all cost.
I will find my way,
and step out of this one day.

Just For Nick

2005-08-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

Nick is a happy go lucky guy,
who doesnt really cry.
He is a gaming king,
who loves to knock down bowling pins.

Sometimes he is a bit crazy and lazy.
Overall he is funny,as while as horny.
Doesn't backstab friends, thats why he dont meet fiends.
He talks very loud and stands out from the crowd.
Ha has leadership qualities,as well as other capabilities.

Know him for not very long, but maybe we could be good friends lifelong.

(dun worry guys, i will have one for each of u.)

The Old Veteran

2005-07-14T21:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes thinking about it, maybe old stuffs are still better. i thought that new items might actually be better but i am wrong. They are either too new or too expensive to get. For samantha she is too young, thus her thinking is fuck up. For stella, all she thinks of is money. For jessica, though she is playful and wild, but she isnt as childish as samantha, isnt that materialistic as stella.

I dunno when or how am i goin to get jessica back. All i can do now is wait and see whether the day will come. hope it does.

went for presentation at Kestrel yesterday. everything went well only for some bumps on the way. For me my design was too simple. The content wasnt enough. Lucky the boss wasnt that heartless. he left me and my group air to breathe.

So, we have to redesign the webbie and now is serious work. no more playin or else we are all gonna die badly.

New Challenger Comes.

2005-06-20T21:00:00.000-07:00

met this ger called samantha. ok looking, abit over chubby but has gd character and attitude. Overall i can say she is gd. got a present from her ( billabong leather wallet) on the 1st time i meet her. feel so paiseh nv get her anything. lol.

her fren came along. both gers named geraldine and a guy called eric. 1 of the geraldine was chubby and has dimples when she smiles. the other was ok, abit boyish looking. as for the eric he is just a normal looking dude.

walked around aimlessly like so dumbass. lol. kinda boring but nvm lah cos 1st time mah. her frenz all still allright. at least they do tok and not stand there like wood and shut up. =]

hope everything go fine.

Holiday like sai

2005-05-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

so bloody tired. the whole club every1 is tired. holiday like no holiday. wtf is wrong man.

recently keep goin back to sch for club meetings and the notice board. haiz bo bian we nid to make computer engineering a better place for the freshies. the number of ppl coming to CEN is getting like lesser n lesser.

after so long nv blog i think i shall write all for once.

next week wont be at home cos there will be orientation for the freshies. dunno what activities there will be for wednesday, thursday n friday. I hope will be fun. hope to see pretty gers too. Tomorrow shall be a mad day i can assure. Play all day no slp at night.

this few days basically did nth but stay at home to rot due to insufficent funds. haiz. play maple again lor cos no other games to play. then Stella stay so far want go find her still nid cash. better not. Seriously saying she is hard to maintain. luvs expensive stuffs. I CANT TAHAN SIA. thats 1 great point that is making me stress. other then she is gd lah.

haiz sometimes u find single life better. sometimes u nid a gf. life is weird in a way.

I am back!

2005-04-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

last time wanted to post an entry but got error so everything gone. i got so fed up thus i stop blogging.

worked as a promoter for 15 days. i feel like a torture. The reason was because i had to stand long hours and u cant sit down. NO CHAIRS. then the lunch break is 1/2 hr. wtf. i didnt care i went for an hrs break haha. Met new frenz in the process. Both gers n guys.

Now felt more relaxed after the supp paper. Victor ng said that all made it except for the guy who nv came.Pan Zhe. yc shud noe who he is. a china guy who slps more den me in class and nv turn up for exams. He is gd. repeating the subject i think a second time. i dunno why he didnt turned up.

4mths pass so fast that i didnt even realised. lifes still the same. i am still single even though there is this ger who likes me. Kinda hard to fee. she expects roxy skirts and lv bag. lol siao arh. i go rob bank meh?

All i can say is that gers that i like have stead or doesnt like me. crap man. dunno what to do to my life hahaha......

oh yeah recently i sign up for the free xbox promotion by starhub soon u guys can come my hse and tear everything down.....FIFA STREET!!! haha. i will always welcome u guys to come. my dad isnt a problem, he is super friendly.

other then all this nth much. been practicing tekken 5 recently. not much improvement but still alright. gonna win rayhan. ARGH!!

Oh My Goddddddddd.

2005-03-22T05:38:00.000-08:00

damn i failed my dsa lab test. i oso dunno why. i now fear that i will fail my dsa sia.
some1 save me!!!

anyways, this few days tok to a ger who is cute and nice, but didn't rly have any special kind of feelings. she is sweet, oways cheerful. 1 thing den i felt sad for her is that she has hyper ventilation. she cant do any vigorous activities or she will get it for straight half hr. quite poor thing but she nv felt down or anything. she still luff wif frenz and doesnt want ppl to stop jokin wif her cos she has that illness.

overall, even though she is those kind that goes out and comes home late, she still doesnt do bad stuffs or mix around wif bad people. fine ger i can say. i dun mind she be my gf. :P

ok enuff of THE ger. for myself i rly dunno why i nv think of jessica anymore but i still dream about her. that kind of feeling rly kills me cos is like pulling me backwards to luving her again. dammit. i dunno whether god is testing me or trying to make me luv jessica once more. haiz i rly dunno her oso. tok to me so gd but so fuck up after she got stuffs to do knn lah fuckin bitch.

ehm...thats about it lah just pray i clear every subjects wifout taking sub paper. haiz sianz.

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THE TENSAI

2005-03-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

lucky we had some1 like yc as a fren sia. or else we either fail all subjects or just pull through.
all thx to him i rly learnt alot. to me i dunno why he so smart.....

dmsd paper was ok. I tot i will fail but at least i could do the paper not so bad.
dsa is gone wif the wind. damn. my java coding just sucks lol.
as for ewa lucky the coding was easier and i find ewa paper the 1 which the best of all 3 cos jsp is rly fun to being wif...although i noe shit about it. :P

overall i think i shud clear bah.... must pray damn hard sia.

oh yah to me i found those fuckers (u all noe who they are) rly irritating and fuck up. losers and cowards like them rly do not worth our respect. they are those who tok but dare not stand up and fuck u in the face. worst of all they hide behind ppl of bigger size to protect them. damn kns. got 1 even worst hide behind ger sia....1st time i see this kind of person. weakling sia.

seriously if they got any problem they shud come and confront but all they did was hide hide hide. knn lah hide ki lan. Like it was hiding their lan jiao when they dun have it in the 1st place.
I HOPE ANY OF U GUYS THERE READ THIS PLS COME FOWARD AND FIND US. IF U DUN PLS GO HOME AND DRINK UR MAMA"S MILK LAH HOR.

lastly. dun act big when u are a shorty and skinny. pls noe urself b4 u go for war dun come back and complain to mama u kena bomb or shot. thx. oh yah i forgot dun stare when u dun have the guts to fight. =]

lalala thats all man. oh yah raj u kuku bird wish u gd luck in getting a gf. i am waiting for u to do wat a man shud do. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. for the rest wish u all pass wif me and stick together team.

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Drowning deep in my sea of loathing. Broken your servant I kneel. It seems what's left of my human side, is slowly changing in me. Looking at my own reflection, when suddenly it changes, violently it changes. There is no turning back now, you've woken up the demon in me.

sianz arh

2005-03-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

kns so few days to lab test havnt study yet jialat dunno wat to do sia seriously.
then today go sch ask yc do mask. that kuku bird got put nivea cream on my hair knn. feel like slappin him sia lol.

then raj helped out lah since he so kaypo lol......but he quite skilled cos he actually manage to smoothen the surface perfectly. as for yc ok lah though not very gd but at least he help me came up wif a topic for my mask. THX ANYWAYS BRO!!!

after tat went home lor sianz alled jess she busy den she miss call me i call back still the same busy fuck up treat me as wat sia....fucker.

oh yah den mich call me and tok heng arh....hahaha tok losta crap lor. lol. as usual feel so empty after everything damn. gonna get used to this kind of life once again. haiz bo bian......hahahaha

Fuck this world lah.....

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Through experience we gain strength, through miles we walk we cover great distance.
Stand and brave the storm, from there we shall roam.

Lunch wif mich

2005-03-08T19:18:00.000-08:00

hha went for lunch wif mich on monday at yoshinoya. ok mich is quite a friendly person and she is funny. eats without vegetables. ask her later her foot drys up and crack she can tell me no lah i go for foot massages often so wont crack. the 1st thing come into my mind is omg wat a rich ger. lol

after that went to sch do bsp lor......lol

this few days damn sianz projects alot. tok to jess she oso dun feel anything.....sibeh sianz sia. argh fuck lah.....lol.

nothing much to say oso ..WAAAAA TAAAAAAAA....kick some ass.

we will stand, we will fight, we will oways be damn right.
we shall not fall, we shall not fail.

I GOT THE LYRICS!! bmp k bmp k bmp tst ks bmp bmp bmp bmp

After so long

2005-02-19T19:19:00.000-08:00

after so long alot of things happened. my gf left me, fail 2 subjects for my term test. haiz. this yr is rly a bad yr for me =[

Now i just feel i shud heck care and enjoy myself. maybe 1 day i will find some1 that will walk down the red carpet wif me. haha i hope the person will appear soon.

For now i will be wif my grp of frenz enjoy chill out get rowdy. Finally is look at gers.......hahahaha. Why not look at gers while u wont get some1 angry or wat. haha.

seriously i got not much to write but that will be all lah.

Whoa ear pain sia!!

2004-11-18T20:32:00.001-08:00

today is the worst day in acer....i used the fone yc been using, hear until my ear pain....
the fone like normal fone then the shape for the ear like so small...lol. this nvm but the fone calls come in like freeeeeeee damn kns.....all ask stupid qns.

everything still can tahan till lunch time went creative to eat with chua.....not bad the place quite spacious not so crowded...we both quickly eat liao go recreational room relax.....watch tv tok cock...blah blah blah.

Now the best part comes in....i eaten my lunch but others havnt right? haha they all went lunch left me alone at help desk....WTF.....1 guy picking calls....hell i tell u. 1 after another comes in and i felt like putting aux. damn tiring sia listening to dumbos toking shit.

they all come back still smile smile i dying like hell liao......then got this fat lady sit at my place but heng i sat at yc place still got com to use or else i die of boredom.......the calls became lesser at around 3+ so quite ok lah relaxing play some GBA games on the com.....lol

then the day ends liao....whoa i sit bus oso fall aslp....mrt oso fall aslp.......even standing i fall aslp. KNS but got money so i dun mind lah.....MUAHAHHAAHAA!!

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Stand up on ur feet, smash off all their teeth. Dun fall down, resist all u can now. U will find the light at the other end, to bring u away from these fiend. Stay strong, u wont go wrong.

Let's Maple!!

2004-10-28T18:08:00.000-07:00

started playing Maple Story. Gameplay not so nice but the characters damn cute...muahahaha..
abit hard to lv up but overall was okay cos i playing with my frenz haaha and my GF!! woohoo song arh..PEOPLE START PLAYING MAPLE STORY LAH.....lolz. Got a lv14 warrior(training in progress), lv10 mage and a lv15 rouge....waiting for u guys to join me leh.

back to acer to work wee fong went to toshiba and raymond got promoted to marketing now no 1 can joke with me liao sianzz.....but still i luv the job cos of its high pay. Once i earn 300 i am goin to get my 1st ps2.

One more thing downtown east chalet when u book comes with a XBOX CONSOLE!! all u need is to rent a game and u can play in ur room whoa isnt that cool??? 8 dollas per day for 1 disc.....quite okay lah...and besides that there is a modem for the xbox i think can play online oso sia......

Arh!!

2004-10-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

so long nv write shit liao......now free so come in remove the damn music and den add a new post =]

ehm what to write maybe write about the goals i did score? they could be counted with my fingers....oh my god how lousy i am...

watched movie with my buddies yesterday.....Scary White Chicks. the show was freaking funny epsecially when the two FBIs dress up as girls....wooohooooooooooooooo!!
story was ok, laughter all the way.....non-stop :D
worth watching it ppl catch it u wont regret it......helps to relax urself too.

i think thats all lor lazy to write more.....boring......lalalaala....lets go shopping!!!

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The Taigou Goal

2004-09-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

today play soccer as usual with my ginggang of frenz....damn funny cos we all were playing kinda of not serious. Wayne got his toe, butt n head hurted. WHY? his stopped the ball with his toes and hurted them,.....den he fell onto the ground and got his butt, after which he laid on the ground where yc dribble the ball and hitted his face. POOR WAYNE!!

Then the miracle happened. The never score me scored for the 1st bloody time but.........a taguo one. FUCK why like this....nvm den i got slide on the turf and injured my elbow....afterwhich i hurted my toe from stopping the ball. I thought it was nth.........until i reach home. The toe was purple....hell man!! I didnt care much that nite and went to slp....lol.

I scored my 1st goal but taigou.....i must score 1 real goal man.
Try to be the best, not the pest or like the lousy rest. If u cant dun give up, get a 7-up and lift urself up. Stand on ur feet, dun knee down and plea. Be yourself :]

Aiyo Eh!!

2004-08-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

wah lau late for sch again cos of that stupid damn 72 bus......always comes in 2 together...arghh!
nth much happen today quite a boring day....went for final theory test dunno will pass or not. Nv get to see my darling but nvm i can call and tok to her....so cute :]!!

reach home oso got nth to do but to see at the computer and play Era of Faith......damn freaking bored.....my darling went to slp early thats why and worst i got no mood. My dad faced some problems and i cant solve them but made him feel even worst.....omg shit me!!

Did apel teh report but 2/3 is done by alvinder the great L, haha, but i dun mind cos i did the 1st part so is his job to do it.....lalala. I think thats all lahnth much to tok cock leh....brain malfunctioning...

Be the great one, command everyone, get things done!