Crushed and Broken

I dunno if i am stupid or what.
I just forget her for nuts.
Why cant i get over her,
but hang on like it was some endangered species's fur.

My heart is broken,
and I have words kept unspoken.
Tears roll everytime,
so much that it can replaced a barrel of wine.

Does she feel anything,
does she even have feelings.
To her i am nobody,
to me she is more important then everybody.
All this while I been waiting, waiting for the day to come.
It never came, and I was called dumb.

People tell me to give up,
but it isnt the same as the love u have for a set of tea cups.
In my heart, she will always be there,
but in hers, i was found nowhere.

All she promised, didn't happen.
I got pissed.
All she said, she didn't mean it.
All i can say, it was bullshit.

How can I get her back?
Maybe I should kidnap her with a sack.
What can I do?
When all I can tell her is I LOVE YOU.

Now since she is like that.
I can only say i am really sad.
I am lost,
but I must not lose my life at all cost.
I will find my way,
and step out of this one day.

Just For Nick

Nick is a happy go lucky guy,
who doesnt really cry.
He is a gaming king,
who loves to knock down bowling pins.

Sometimes he is a bit crazy and lazy.
Overall he is funny,as while as horny.
Doesn't backstab friends, thats why he dont meet fiends.
He talks very loud and stands out from the crowd.
Ha has leadership qualities,as well as other capabilities.

Know him for not very long, but maybe we could be good friends lifelong.



(dun worry guys, i will have one for each of u.)

The Old Veteran

sometimes thinking about it, maybe old stuffs are still better. i thought that new items might actually be better but i am wrong. They are either too new or too expensive to get. For samantha she is too young, thus her thinking is fuck up. For stella, all she thinks of is money. For jessica, though she is playful and wild, but she isnt as childish as samantha, isnt that materialistic as stella.

I dunno when or how am i goin to get jessica back. All i can do now is wait and see whether the day will come. hope it does.

went for presentation at Kestrel yesterday. everything went well only for some bumps on the way. For me my design was too simple. The content wasnt enough. Lucky the boss wasnt that heartless. he left me and my group air to breathe.

So, we have to redesign the webbie and now is serious work. no more playin or else we are all gonna die badly.

New Challenger Comes.

met this ger called samantha. ok looking, abit over chubby but has gd character and attitude. Overall i can say she is gd. got a present from her ( billabong leather wallet) on the 1st time i meet her. feel so paiseh nv get her anything. lol.

her fren came along. both gers named geraldine and a guy called eric. 1 of the geraldine was chubby and has dimples when she smiles. the other was ok, abit boyish looking. as for the eric he is just a normal looking dude.

walked around aimlessly like so dumbass. lol. kinda boring but nvm lah cos 1st time mah. her frenz all still allright. at least they do tok and not stand there like wood and shut up. =]

hope everything go fine.

Holiday like sai

so bloody tired. the whole club every1 is tired. holiday like no holiday. wtf is wrong man.

recently keep goin back to sch for club meetings and the notice board. haiz bo bian we nid to make computer engineering a better place for the freshies. the number of ppl coming to CEN is getting like lesser n lesser.

after so long nv blog i think i shall write all for once.

next week wont be at home cos there will be orientation for the freshies. dunno what activities there will be for wednesday, thursday n friday. I hope will be fun. hope to see pretty gers too. Tomorrow shall be a mad day i can assure. Play all day no slp at night.

this few days basically did nth but stay at home to rot due to insufficent funds. haiz. play maple again lor cos no other games to play. then Stella stay so far want go find her still nid cash. better not. Seriously saying she is hard to maintain. luvs expensive stuffs. I CANT TAHAN SIA. thats 1 great point that is making me stress. other then she is gd lah.

haiz sometimes u find single life better. sometimes u nid a gf. life is weird in a way.

I am back!

last time wanted to post an entry but got error so everything gone. i got so fed up thus i stop blogging.

worked as a promoter for 15 days. i feel like a torture. The reason was because i had to stand long hours and u cant sit down. NO CHAIRS. then the lunch break is 1/2 hr. wtf. i didnt care i went for an hrs break haha. Met new frenz in the process. Both gers n guys.

Now felt more relaxed after the supp paper. Victor ng said that all made it except for the guy who nv came.Pan Zhe. yc shud noe who he is. a china guy who slps more den me in class and nv turn up for exams. He is gd. repeating the subject i think a second time. i dunno why he didnt turned up.

4mths pass so fast that i didnt even realised. lifes still the same. i am still single even though there is this ger who likes me. Kinda hard to fee. she expects roxy skirts and lv bag. lol siao arh. i go rob bank meh?

All i can say is that gers that i like have stead or doesnt like me. crap man. dunno what to do to my life hahaha......

oh yeah recently i sign up for the free xbox promotion by starhub soon u guys can come my hse and tear everything down.....FIFA STREET!!! haha. i will always welcome u guys to come. my dad isnt a problem, he is super friendly.

other then all this nth much. been practicing tekken 5 recently. not much improvement but still alright. gonna win rayhan. ARGH!!

Oh My Goddddddddd.

damn i failed my dsa lab test. i oso dunno why. i now fear that i will fail my dsa sia.
some1 save me!!!

anyways, this few days tok to a ger who is cute and nice, but didn't rly have any special kind of feelings. she is sweet, oways cheerful. 1 thing den i felt sad for her is that she has hyper ventilation. she cant do any vigorous activities or she will get it for straight half hr. quite poor thing but she nv felt down or anything. she still luff wif frenz and doesnt want ppl to stop jokin wif her cos she has that illness.

overall, even though she is those kind that goes out and comes home late, she still doesnt do bad stuffs or mix around wif bad people. fine ger i can say. i dun mind she be my gf. :P

ok enuff of THE ger. for myself i rly dunno why i nv think of jessica anymore but i still dream about her. that kind of feeling rly kills me cos is like pulling me backwards to luving her again. dammit. i dunno whether god is testing me or trying to make me luv jessica once more. haiz i rly dunno her oso. tok to me so gd but so fuck up after she got stuffs to do knn lah fuckin bitch.

ehm...thats about it lah just pray i clear every subjects wifout taking sub paper. haiz sianz.

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